so, i may be needing to make some...apologies, i suppose you would call them. most of you know what ive been doing for the past 2 months (including the 'rents) and i was going through a lot of, tough, stuff. and i kinda lost hold of what i was doing. and i know, a lot of friends didnt really like what was happening, but i found myself in it. so i guess some good came out of it right? but my many apologies to whoever i hurt in this process, i suppose my only excuse was, well, the past 6 months, although very good at times, very, depressing and lonely at others. but im back on track, got someone whose making me feel better and happy, and well making me feel like me again. without all the crap i was doing before. so thank you for standing by me, for the ones that did. and if you didnt, i understand. just know, i found myself, who i am, really, who i am. my apologies to everyone i hurt, i love you all. and you all know it.
heres a few special ones...
eric, well where to begin with you. you are an great person and im glad ive been able to spend these last 6 months, good or bad with you. and i do still care about you. im sorry for everything i did to you, i realize now, i did it wrong. i did everything all wrong, and i really apologize. i also, well, want to thank you for helping through everything, for being there, and helping me learn a lot about myself. so im supposing this is my finally letting go of you, "no last kiss, and no goodbye" as from autumn to ashes says, this is my last goodbye. "i wish you joy and happiness, but above all things i wish you love"
courtney, i couldnt have asked for a better best friend. you are always there and hope you always will be, you know everything, and through it all, youve stayed by me. i cant wait till you get back so i can tell you everything. ive done some shitty things to you to im suspecting, so i apologize profusly, never meant to hurt you.
adam, well i suppose this is where i say you were right, and i was wrong.
and mark, thanks, you make me so happy, and you are helping me get out of this, although you dont really know what most of this is, ill tell you tho. you put a smile on my face, and thats what i need now. im keeping my fingers crossed, cuz for some reason i think this could go good...<3
p.s sorry for the emo/sappy stuff. needed to do it.